Fool me once, Shame on ME

[ninelives]

NOt much to update:

She did text me on father's day to tell me that youngest son wrote:

Fathers day today. And had a bunch of hearts around her white board. She said, They both love you so much.

Then she wrote: I hope you have a good day with your boys.


I went to a dance on Sat night. There were many of my former students there and lots of nice looking ladies but to be totally honest. I missed my wife sooooo much at that dance. I only had a couple of drinks and so many of my ex students could not recognize me with all the weight I lost and cut my hair.

Before I left for the dance , Wife came over to pick up the boys.
I had new clothes and then purposely took my overnight bag out and put it in the trunk. I was going to use it as well.

W: So where are you going anyway.

M: Out

W: I see you are staying overnight. Where are you staying?

I walked away without a response and got the boys rounded up

W: Could you please drop the boys over to my house.

M: Sorry, cant't Im running late. ( which I was)

I then went to the dance. It was fun for the most part as I did see alot of alumni there. Also saw a girl that is now 30 years old and is also a teacher in little current. She lives about 4 houses down from me and is very good looking. I have always hit it off with her. Maybe somebody to think about down the road.

But again, I thought of my wife alot that night. Then I was thinking, but she is with another man and that doesnt appear to be going anywhere. I wonder if she really does love him. They've been seenig each other on the sly for nearly a year and a half now. One year behind my back and now 6 months in the open.

But if she truly loved him, would she have stayed in my room at the hockey tournament with me. Would she have let me cuddle with her , massage her back etc... Would she have sent me the text about her downward spiral.? I dont know , maybe Im just fishing.

Today is my oldest sons birthday. She is coming to the dinner and for presents and then Im sure she will leave early. Im sure her BF wont want her to stay there too long. Also, against my better judgement, I invited my BIL which is ok, but then he asked if his W could also come. We had a blow out if you remember about a month ago and I havent spoken to her since.

I said sure, but I dont have to talk to her much , just be civil.
I know that she doesnt like me and supports her sister but MY son did say that he wished everybody could be together for his birthday. This one last time I will make it happen and maybe this is a 180 for me as I would normally hold a grudge. Maybe its good that she can see me forgive.

I have to get Pizza , Wings and the fixing for milkshakes.

BTW: The last couple of day have been tough for me. I guess the holidays and birthdays make me question what she is thinking to break apart such a good family. I wonder if she is happy .

Forgot to mention. When my sons stayed with her on Sat. She asked oldest:

W: Where is dad going Sat. Night?

OS: I dont know.

W: BS, you know , please tell me.

OS: I honestly dont know.

She was pi$$y with him
OS: What do you care anyway?

W: I dont know, just curious.

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