totally hear ya, I never realize how crazy the grass grew on the sides of the house before, the toilet tanks leaked, the water heater burst... and when ex was around, almost nothing went bad! ... I got myself some good trusworthy repairmen and have come to accept that a few times a year something will break/get old/too worn out.
There comes a time when you just have to say it "forget it!" and learn to laugh at yourself. Give yourself a break, let go of a lott of things... the little things that eat at you... nothing is worth your peace of mind sugar, you are very valuable and remember that.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.