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[Lonely in SLC]

It has rained on and off all day here in Salt Lake. It kind of reflects the range of emotions that I have experienced. Having the kids definitely helps take my mind off of the current situation. The three are great and always happy despite what is going on. They are truly a blessing.

We played games and ate a big breakfast in the morning. The afternoon was spent going to the movies. I miss not having them around always.

The hardest part of everything is the roller coaster of emotions that I'm going through. The last week I have been more upbeat about everything.

But while driving back to my parents place the waves of sorrow came crashing down upon me, threatening to drown me. I cried while driving home. It has been a week since the tears last flowed. This is hard........very hard.....