Preparing For Big D & STILL Here

[Denver_2010]

On Mother's Day, I texted "Happy Mother's Day" to STBX. Today, she couldn't even bother to recognize the day on my behalf. I have had our children at home with me for a year and a half since she walked out. Doesn't that warrant something? She can actually come here a few days ago when it suits her agenda, but can't even send a text today. I am starting to believe she actually hates me.

D19 is making me dinner tonight. Maybe S17 will help. At least they (well...most D) remembered. I just went for a walk through my neighborhood. So many families, including extended enjoying the day together in back yards. That made me so sad. My kids no longer have their Mom and Dad together and also have virtually no contact with either extended family. One of the biggest mistakes I made was giving up my extended family to try to protect my core family. All my family was trying to do was get me to truly understand the relationship between STBX and her Boss. Now, she is with him and I have lost my family.

Some days I wonder if I was truly evil in a past life.

BeTheMan - I just want to stop in on your thread and wish you the best of luck. I know how difficult it must be going through what you are right now.

I can also kind of relate to the extended family thing that you talk about. I too have pushed my family away as a result of what I'm going through. I have done it only bc I tired of hearing everyone's opinion on what they thought I should do... and tired of hearing them criticize my W and defend me... I guess that's just not what I wanted to hear.

Can you repair those relationships? I would think that your family would understand anything that you did during a very difficult time of your life... especially since it was done in defense of your 'core' family.

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Denver