WAW in Los Angeles

[wawinla]

Journal:

I saw my WAW for the first time in 8 weeks. It was surreal, awkward, happy, and sad at the same time. I noted the following...not sure what everything means...appreciate any insight:

--She emphasized that she is committed to the finalizing the D. However there was no discussion of a settlement agreement
--She wanted to know how I was doing. She said she has good/bad days. I told her I do as well, but GAL.
--She said we're dealing with the D under the same time frame (since February), she didn't think about filing until then. Is this possible?
--Teared up when I told her that are next door neighbors are getting D. Very moved and affected by it.
--She has always been a foodie/cooking. She's fully immersed now after leaving. I told her to take the food processor, but she insisted on leaving it at the house.
--Asked how my job search was going. Told her that I have some good leads. She was supportive and made a nice comment that I deserved to get my first choice.

She took some remaining clothes and left. The whole interaction took about 30 minutes.

The rest of the evening I was pretty down. Seeing her made me miss her so much, wrestling and struggling with acceptance of the situation and hoping for a change of heart.

We're finally having some nice weather in SoCal...will go out to get my mind off everything.