At the end is a new beginning

[islander]

It is a good feeling, and I am embracing it. Not much has changed. I still feel like I don't want to be M even if my W were to change her mind. BTW, nothing has changed with my W either.

I havent been in contact with My W very much. We had a "discussion" the other day about our bikes, and I just told her not to worry about them any more. She was being a little pi$$y, and I new it was coming sooner or later, so I made the decision. It felt good too.

So today and tnight, I got my D and SD. They had a great time tonight. I tm and talked to my W quite a bit about what we were doing. The girls had a lot of fun. I acted as if when we spoke, but it's really not acting these days. W is coming over at 9 get SD. It is hard to be around SD a lite bit, bc it reminds me of what I have lost, a D in my eyes. She was very happy with me and my F, and we really did have a great day.

It still hurts when I Start to see what I lost again, but that is not and was not my choice. My SD is great, my W is not.

That's about it.