One thing I know about myself that needs to change is my passive-aggressive tendencies. The emails from W were both p-a and my first response was a little passive. Rather than hinting at what I want ('well, what do you want') I'm slowly training myself to be firm. Given that, my response was
(get those 2x4s ready)
I'd prefer your company.
That is what I want. I also want a pony, but that's outside the scope of this board.
I forgot to mention that my co-worker and one of her friends are parking at my apartment and walking to the concert with me. This will keep both W and I on better behaviour.
Outside of this, I still am not ready to be around W but at some point it will happen. We have a core group of common friends and live in the same (albeit large) college town. We're both going to a friend's wedding reception in three weeks.
Am I making a mistake? Only time will tell.
Am I setting the stage for some pleasant memories with W? Definitely. Does this keep the road home smooth and paved? Yep. Does this get me closer to my goal? Er, well, it would if I had goals
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
