Dark Side of the Moon

[LearningPatience]

Hmmm, maybe my strategy of flailing around blindly isn't as clever as I thought

Honestly, my short term goal was/is to stop the pain and remove myself from the sitch. The letter I wrote was more for my benefit than hers. I got to my breaking point and anything else I said or did would have made things worse. I gave myself a time out.

Now, I wouldn't mind dipping my toes in the water so to speak. I'm not ready to jump back into the pool with W. I'm not ready to have a R with her and I don't think she's ready to have one with me. I do want to keep that possibility open for the future though.

I guess my goal right now is to slow the world down and deal with all the stress that's been dumped in my lap over the past year or so. I'm rather overwhelmed, so I'm trying to do various GAL activities (running, volunteering, concerts, reading, etc.) to help me cope.

Are these reasonable or manageable goals? I really don't know.