Wife and i had a very good talk last night on the phone. I basically talked most of the time and she listened but when she talked i listened wholeheartedly. I told i realized that i hurt her and in turn while i was hurting her with my ignorance that i was also hurting myself. I told her that it has devastated and crushed me that i hurt her so. I can't sleep well and i think about all the hurtful things that i did to my wife. I explained to her that i start counseling next week and the with God's help i'm gonna be the man i want to be. The husband and man that she deserves and the father that my girls deserve. I told her that i'm going to prove it to her and show her that i can be that man.
Funny thing happened while i was telling her that i'm gonna be the man i want to be, as i'm telling her that the Chris Young song "The Man I Want To Be" came on and also as i was leaving the house for work this morning that was the song on the radio!!
Hoping and praying that with God's help i'll show her that i will be the man i want to be.
