9, it's ok, I think those are common feelings. I was like that a few days ago. In fact, I kinda did the same thing and fixated on one phrase she used in the only communication we've had in weeks: "I could not remember if your lease was 6 or 9 months but six is coming up if we need to discuss moving etc."
What does my W mean about moving: me moving to another apt, moving back in with her, what? Like you, I haven't a clue how to really read this.
Like you, I've wanted to call her, talk to her, see her so bad. Your thoughts are normal, I think we all go through this.
I doubt her life is exactly how she wants it now, and I suspect the fog clears momentarily for most of our WAS.
You'll be ok, we all will.
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011