Fool me once, Shame on ME

[ninelives]

Hello Board:

HORRORS, am having a real downtime today and I cant explain why.

Want to call her so bad and talk to her. Ask her about what she meant with the quote. HERE comes the downward spiral . Wonder where her head space is at right now.

I wont act on these feelings but they are driving me nuts. I dont know why this is happening. I just really want her back and my family back in tact an for life to go on the way it was supposed to. How immature are these thoughts.

I am trying very hard to stay the course but I guess today is a major backslide in my GAL. I havent called her but I want to so bad.

I mean ,I have gone dark and it really hasnt changed much. Except that moment of weakness from her about a downward spiral.

Why would she want me of all people to know this. Shouldnt she be going on like her life is exactly how should would want it right now?

Help please.

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