So...am I still a newcomer?

[Telemark]

I think it is not that I don't know what to expect, because W has been polite and pleasant. It's the fact that she is polite and pleasant, and nothing more. She is a stunningly beautiful and sexy woman, and to be inches away from her and not be able to have any type of affectionate or passionate contact...that still causes pain and sorrow. So I do what I can to avoid any contact unless it is necessary, which feels unnatural after so many years of being close in the same house.

That's why I said earlier sometimes I think a physical separation would be easier; there would not be the constant reminder of what was and what may never be again.