Never thought I would be back here again... 3

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My first question was to ask if he was ok and I'm glad to hear that he will be.

I can imagine it hurt when he told you to leave. I would feel hurt also.
However, I am glad you were able to pull yourself together and respect his wishes. Kudos to you for that.

As for advice, I wish I had something awesome to offer you, but I don't.
Your H sounds a lot likE how I was before I started C for myself. Very low self esteem and negative self talk. I was/am very good at self sabotaging myself. It's something I am really trying hard to overcome.
You are correct in knowing that his issues are not because of you. They are because of him and unfortunately he is the only one who can change it.
It's hard and it takes work, but it can be done. I'm living proof.