when you have moved on

[forward]

X continues to demonstrate more interest in D, which is good. I was shocked that he actually showed up somewhere when I suggested. But really I figured he had nothing else to do and his new woman wasn't around and he was lonely.

I guess at one time I might have seen this as progress. But I hung my heart on things and I couldn't see doing that any more.

I think I believe his MLC rants now, that he didn't really love me. I didn't want to believe them But I think I believe them now. I think I was someone he got together with because I was responsible, which meant he didn't have to be.