BTM, sorry for the pain you are going through. You've already given yourself the necessary 2x4s, so no need for me to rehash them. There is one thing I have to point out though... xmas is over 6 months away! I understand looking to the future, but that's waaaay too far in advance to know where any of you will be.
Focus on today, maybe tomorrow. Not July, not December, today!
LP - I only seem to be able to focus on the day when I stay dark. Even limited exposure to her brings me to my knees. I suppose one of these days, I will truly "quit" when she tells me for the hundredth time that there is no hope.
I hate the fact that I have no control over myself when she is anywhere near me.
