For the record: No OW--either this time or last. He never said he didn't love me, he just said he couldn't "do this" any longer. Wanted to move, didn't want me to go to school for nursing, has health issues, thought he killed someone last May. It's easier to give the old standby acronym of "ILYNIL"
He struck me once. He was threatening 2 other times. I called the police all 3 x. I have a S15. No daughters.
What has changed? Made me ponder his changes?
Well, for one thing--the Going Dark being a technique and my never uing it before.
And our no contact being done. He has come to the house--knocked on the door--sat on the porch instead of staying in the car.
When he is out of my sight--BELIEVE ME--he is out of my mind.lol.
he was your h a long time and I know it's hard to pretend he's gone for good as if he's dead. I'm not saying you have to do that. But.....
Doesn't that "but" mean that you DO mean for me to do just that? Pretend he is dead? or something?
Ok--I'm just not able to be that person. I have a son that is watching ME too.
NOT open to reconciliation with the person he was 6 months ago--NO WAY.
ALWAYS open to a reconciliation with a person that has grown. Has he? Don't know.
I have an older couple at church--the H went to prison for assault. They are together. They happen to be a good friend's sister and brother-in-law. I NEVER knew before this, that this happened to them. And also others have told me that they have had issues this way. I didn't think you could stay together either but God sure put a LOT of people into my path that have faced this before.
I am trusting God to give me a way back, if he wants this for me. Otherwise, God seems to also keep putting people in my path that are super fun, encouraging, interesting...and there has been no path "back" revealed to me as of yet. It just keeps going forward in the most interesting ways!!
I think I thought your post had some insight that way. But nope--God still wants me to have fun!
