The big punch - Redux

[Redo]

Journaling

Called to talked to daughter at usual time yesterday. Looks like wife's family was having some party. Could not reach my daughter.

When i asked for good time to talk to daughter, wife insisted that 4-5pm was the best one. This is the time i am at work. But still, i make sure that this time is blocked out so no meetings are are scheduled for me during this time. I told wife that. But on numerous occasions wife asks me to call up later at other times. I usually comply. But nowadays I am also letting her know that i make an effort to make sure that 4-5pm is cleared for me. Looks like she does not care or does not get it.

But i guess yesterdays was a big milestone for her. She got a job that she interviewed for. Not a permanent one, but a contract position.

I am happy for her. But i am also having a big time panic attack right now. Her getting a job means that she will have fewer reasons to even consider reconciliation. I could be wrong. I just wish i can move past this event. Looks like for now i am stuck on it.