Letting go is hard to do!

[Seminolewind]

I do have a lawyer. We were supposed to work everything out between the two of us to keep the costs of the divorce down. Well she has decided that I am trying to do her wrong. She told my D17 if I was a good dad I would have given her more in child support. I have been paying what was determined based on each of our incomes. Her Lawyer put in the proposal that I make about $30K more than I actually do based on what I had made in Feb of this year. The statement even had my annual income at the top but he just threw something together. Well I am a Federal employee on a set salary so this is just some kind of scare tactic to get more money. It really isn't my fault that she wanted out of the marriage and is having a hard time financially. I am living paycheck to paycheck and it's tough.

I told my lawyer that I needed some time to think before we send a reply back. I have a few thoughts that I just don't know if it would hurt my chances at her ever seeing me as the better man.
I could go for custody of my kids and I think I have a great chance in getting custody because of her drinking. I think if I did win custody she would have even more anger towards me but she does need help with her drinking problem.

I could be perfectly honest and tell my lawyer to withdraw all the paper work that has been filed through the court and tell her I want to work on the marriage. That would probably go over like a lead balloon.

In reality both my girls know I have become the dad that I should have always been and my W has put the OM as her priority. If the OM is truly who she thinks will complete her life who am I to stand in her way?

Maybe I am scared to rock the boat with the girls because I have never been that type of guy towards my wife. Maybe this is a 180 I should do to show her I am a strong man? I also worry if I go for the girls she will see it as me forcing her back in my life. That is kind of why I haven't sought custody.

I think I need some advice!