my thoughts are that you should re-read this post out loud to yourself every day
it's a good one.
Live by it. Seriously.
Be real about what was...Half your m was spent apart, 3 bombs in 5 years...
don't forget, but don't wallow in the pain of the past.
And maybe your d IS the reason you two got together. See it as a hard earned gift.
NOW....
Your future looks bright (yeah, I need shades)
but don't give up on the Aid thing so fast. I got loans up til the day school began (late summer for fall)
If you're a legal resident you'll qualify for some aid, maybe your home country can too?
Good luck, keep on keeping on!
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016