Rough day today. My work announced today that they were shifting operations from our centre to another city. So long story short I am being surplussed. This could not come at a worse time. I felt like I was making some headway, and now it has all evaporated.
I asked my W if she wanted to go out on the weekend (on advice from my therapist and my family Dr.) and do something fun like go to the movies and she said no... I am very disappointed. Furthermore she is not wanting to do anything for Fathers day on Sunday. I know I should expect nothing from her and that's exactly what I get. The thing is that I could have really used her support today, and I didn't get any. She has been in a good mood lately and I wanted to believe that it was because of my 180, but clearly the events of today have set me back. I have been working on my yelling and have not lost it at all for at least 1.5 weeks now... I am also doing a lot more of the household chores, child rearing and yard work. I have stuck to my exercise regimen and have been in a positive mood around her even through todays crisis.
I don't know how much more I can take. Thank God I have the love of my kids, without them there would be no light for me. Everything looks very bleak right now, and it is really tough to keep a positive attitude.
How will I know if and when my wife is ready for me to start piecing? What should I look for? Am I just too impatient? These last 2 weeks have felt like an eternity. I have been the one who is walking on eggshells. This is so painful...
Me 45 W 34 W.A.W. 3K. D11 S9 D6 M 12 y T 13 y Bomb drop 02/22/2011 2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011 Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011
