...Then I will have to decide what is best for me.
The biggest issue I have is fully accepting that and truly living my life without waiting for that day to come.
Can't you decide what is best for you today?
It's been a while since this all happened, living in the past is wasting the time you have today.
Life is a precious thing to waste, stop worrying about going dark and how your wife talks to the OM, focus on your life and make it a great example for your kids to follow.
