Thanks Kaffe. I will keep that in mind but he ended it so there is no more EA, so is it still cake eating? Since he told me when it seemed to end the EA when it started going that route in April, he has been around me all the time. I am in a better place and he even says how I am doing all the things he wanted me to do. He even made a comment that I must be doing it 'in spite of him'. I said that its not true but I can't change his reality. I validated and said that there are things I wish I could have done differently.
I am so confused today though. Do I believe him?
When I share my conversation with some friends they all say not to believe him, its not logical. Why would some girl write a note saying "I love you" just as a friend thinking they might get more. He says they never went on a date, just work lunches and never hung out after. He never kissed her, etc. He said he was talking to her as a friend and had no intentions of going further. But really, who does write a note saying that unless there was more to it?
I believed him, it seemed sincere. But was he lying cause deep down he knows that twice is too many for me and the kids would know his ugly side?
It doesn't seem right. Then I question do I just think today forward.
Then I think but let him do this to me three times?
When is enough?
And its amazing to me to think its not a physical thing, always think that's the way men think.
No, I marry the one who says its emotional issues; we have switched roles.
H:41 W:44 D1:19 D2:17 S:13 D3:7 T:20 M:18 Bomb:1/5/11 Sep:2/18/11 No D filed yet; just threats