25 - You're right. I don't have anything to lose. She is trying to make this an amicable break. She just won't let go. Last time I saw her.. I told myself I wouldn't talk about r.. but I did. Can't take it back, but I did learn valuable things instead of assuming. Like that she didn't want me in her life at the moment because of the shame. She said that we did need to set a date to determine if we would stay together or divorce. I asked her if she had an answer now. She said no.
I find the NC really helping me deal with stuff. I'm reading the books but am scared. Yes, Yes, and yes to everything you said. I am getting the feeling that you think my r "is possible to turnaround but not likely". Forgive me if that sounds anything other than curious.
Will keep pushing forward. Thank you for responding to my thread. I truly value your opinion.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
