I tried to daydream, but my mind kept wandering

[ClingingToHope]

Struggled today. I was so busy over the weekend -- and I was out of town -- that I didn't feel much.

Today was the first day of a week of vacation with the girls. I organized it so I could pick the girls up at 8:30 a.m. XW has to be at work by then so I figured I wouldn't see her.

No luck. When I showed up, the girls weren't quite ready so I went inside and XW was there -- and that sucked.

I don't know what I expected. Some sort of sign of regret. I don't know. But she was matter of fact as usual.

I eventually got out of there and the rest of the day was OK. Two company softball games. Girls came to the games and had fun. Went swimming twice at uncle's house.

Still, I had a lot of time to go through my thoughts and it was tough.

Texted back and forth with Church_32 for much of the morning. Texted a lot with her last night.

Not -- hey, let's get together -- texting but church and school stuff. She's going back to college to get her degree.

I'm considering trying for a Master's next year.

Some clues to her breakup with her fiance came out. Apparently, the guy shows a lot of favoritism to his son and Church_32 tried to help him build a better relationship with his daughter.

That's really all I know about what happened there.

There's some deep issues with her about fathers and daughters.

I will be the first to admit that it's a bit of a crutch -- filling a bit of a void for me.

D12 and D8 and I are going to Chicago tomorrow for the day. This is this week's big trip. The rest of the week will be like today, finding cheap fun.

I felt pretty good by the end of the day.

I haven't felt this way in a while, but it's helping me get through today -- The best revenge is a life well lived."