Lorie, Read your second to the last sentence of your post above. How remarkable is it that you've come to the point where you've said that (and clearly mean it)?
Amazing progress :-)
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying