OnMyWay: to who knows where?

[OnMyWay]

Hi AJM80! Hope your vacation was productive for you.

As per my sitch, no we have not moved forward with D. W has not pursued it at all. I haven't had the money to get the ball rolling. Now that I think of it, W has artfully avoided the topic.

It has been a strange couple of weeks. After all the SMIL drama, as you know, I had enough. I had actually mentioned D a number of times and made my point quite clear that, while "this was not what I wanted, I need to move in some direction and, since you've made yourself perfectly clear that we won't be staying together, D is our answer." Her reaction to this was interesting. Not only did she dodge the issue, she began going out with her male friend (former friend of mine whom I know consider the OM - the guy from the movies on mother's day). She has always been hanging out with him, as they are part of the same party group. However, they began openly posting their "togetherness" on facebook. I took this to be one of two things: either they are finally being open about their relationship, or they are trying to push my buttons and see if they can get a rise out of me. Jury is still out about which it is, but either way, it didn't bother me and I never mentioned it.

Here's where it gets weird. Last Tues our D was to receive an award at school for being such a great student. W had school and couldn't go. I took the day off from work, so I could. About 20 mins before, W texted me that her class was cancelled and she was rushing over to meet me, so we could go together. "Great!" I said, as my kid would be thrilled. We went together. Not so weird, but it does get weirder.

On the walk home after, she cautiously asks me out to breakfast - to our old favorite breakfast joint. She pays. Then, we go home, hang out, and I decide I feel like a nap, and SHE JOINS ME. I didn't sleep long, but left her to it. I leave to go get D from school.

I had an appointment at 6 pm. She was suppose to stay with D, but since D went out roller skating with friends to celebrate, W decided to go home, even though I had offered to make her dinner when I returned. No big deal. I made plans with a buddy of mine instead.

She texted me at 7 pm, asking if I was done with my appointment and if it would be weird if she came over and hung out with me. She "didn't want to be alone." I changed my plans with my buddy, made her dinner, and we hung out all evening, similar to last time when we had our "make out" session. Except this time, we ended up ML!!! WTH?

Yesterday, she was suppose to come over and spend the day with D, as I had another appointment. She showed up at the last minute, looking stunning! WTH is going on here? I asked her if she had plans or something, what the occasion was, and she just said a fortune teller said she should just do it (inside joke about a fortune teller patient she had).

She stayed for dinner again, then we ended up talking openly about what's transpired. She obviously is working hard to revise history. All she could talk about was how great her party weekend was with her friends. That has obviously put some sort of spin on her emotions and she is just as confused as ever. Now, it's back to the ol' denial stage and we are right back on the same ol' roller coaster - except this time, I don't really care and I'm not gonna ride. This is her burden. I apologize for being crass, but if she wants to jump into the sack again, then fine, I'm all good with that. But on the rest of the BS, count me out.

So, anyone have any insight on this? Any suggestions on how to handle this sitch. What to do/not to do? Any female perspective, as I've long since given up on trying to figure any of this out? I think I'll stay my course for now. Keep doing for me. Keep moving forward. Keep makin' some money. Keep planning for MY future.

(* Sigh *)