Slowly we unfurl, as lotus flowers

[♪CS♪]

I went through all of the pictures from our trip this weekend. Got some really good ones of D.

All of a sudden got hit hard with a pit in my stomach. I posted some to FB and sent some to my parents, but W and I still see that little girl different than anyone else. It is hard not to share them with her.

I can't believe we are getting close to 6 months separated already. D has changed so much since she left.

One one side this has helped me really focus on D. We have created some great memories over the last several months. On the other hand, I can't help but think about the person missing from all of them.

I just get back to the same question, how is this worth it to her?

She has missed so much already. Shoot I have as well. We are part time parents now. How does a mother chose to give up so much of her D's life?

Why am I so down tonight???!!!!????