XYZ is here, but I won't be staying...

[XYZ]

What a damn mess. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate this? I'm sure NONE of you feel that way!

I get "over" it, I lean out, she leans it, I get hopeful again. Why do I allow myself to do that?

Yesterday (and several times over last few days), she just gives me venom. I ignore it totally. Perfect reaction on my part. Easy to do because I'm over it. Too much crap from her for too long. Finally got the point where I couldn't take any more of it.

Just a few minutes ago, I was out and called home to tell the kids goodnight. W answers, kids already asleep. She it totally pleasant with me. We chat (about kids) for 2 or 3 minutes and I end the call first. (I may be done, but I still DB - kinda natural at this point.)

Then not 5 minutes later, a text from W: "I'm sorry you missed them. Do you want me to have them call you in the AM?"

Me: "That would be nice. Thank you"

Her:"Ok, will do"

Her again: "Meant to ask. Are all going to your parents for Father's Day this weekend? If so, I'll get something from the kids for your dad"

Me: "Yes we are, and that would be nice of you"

Her: "I try"


W-T-F? Perfectly nice woman. Yesterday she could have been calling me Satan's spawn. I'm not going to read anything into it, but do I allow myself ANY hope? I tried and tried for so long until I didn't think I could try any more. I've moved out, I've dated. I told her I didn't have to answer to her anymore. I emailed notes to my lawyer today. I said I was done and now...

Maybe it's the 180, and that's good, but still do I allow myself to hope? How can I not, but how can I any more either?