Thanks for the reply Brian. I read your letter to your xw yesterday. It did tear me up a bit. It's funny, because I think reading it was one of the reasons I finally posted - I could see H doing that after I was gone and maybe I was hoping to prevent the "too late" part. I hope it helped you to write that.
I too hope that my H wakes up. He is either very conflicted, really doensn't know how to stop, or is really not where he wants to be.
Either way, I need to either see something different - and lasting, or I need to get on with my life.
Some posters on his thread made the assumption that my self-esteem must be so low from his tirades, but I don't think it is. I actually don't believe the things he says about me when he's abusive. It just breaks my heart that he's pushing me away, that's all. I'm not sure which is worse.
