I feel like I have done a lot of healing and I finally feel peace which is the best feeling ever. Not having anxiety anymore is great as I hadn't realised how badly I had or for how long, and at least I recognise it when I feel it and deal with it.
Joe and I had a few really good, honest talks. One of the things I really appreciate about him is his frankness and honesty with me to the point where I sometimes feel like he shouldn't be so honest(!!). It is very refreshing after exh. Anyway, the upshot is that we both very much like each other and want to continue the relationship but we would take some time apart as we both had things that we need to do for ourselves. Of course since I've gone, he has really missed me (as I have him too) and wants me to come back as he has another year in Australia. As I said in my original post I am giving myself the summer here to enjoy, which I have ahd in my head to do for ages, and then will reassess things in Septemberish time. Plus I have no money!
My first day back at work is weird, literally nothing has changed here. I have one point which I am wondering what to do about and that is I am known here as Julia *exh name* and as I am not that any longer and don't wish to hear that name again I don't really know what to do. As most people don't know my personal circumstances I don't really want people to assume I have got married when I was away and have to explain otherwise. Or even how to say that is no longer my name. Has anyone encountered this before?
