STILL here...even after I quit.

[LearningPatience]

Glad to see that you had a great time with family over the weekend. I'd also agree that your STBX probably does have a deep down love for you, it would be nearly impossible not to. My W is very similar, I know she loves me, but chooses to spend more time with OM. I *don't* think she loves him though, she just has to figure out for herself what she wants.

There's not a day that goes by that I want to desperately contact my W and be around her. The darkness for us is to help us heal, but you are right, at some point you need to contact, if only for closure.

Hang in there!