Spent the weekend with W. Party with friends Friday, house and garden on Saturday, dinner Saturday night, big day on Sunday with museum, followed by a show. Sunday afternoon she mentioned several times how much fun she had. W got a bit melancholy on the way home on Sunday, staring out the car window. I tried to keep things light, no R talk, no pressure.
Today we have meeting with her L to start separation procedures. I will not sign anything until I have seen my own L.
We are living in the house, separate bedrooms, but beyond that, are spending time together, having dinners together, etc.
All this is happening while she is moving forward with her game plan of a D or S and moving out of state.
Is this good, or am I fiddling as Rome burns? Is she getting her cake and eating it too? Am I supposed to be aloof and distant, living my own life and ignoring hers? Or do I keep on being a steady nice guy, living my changes, GAL, letting her see what a new life would be like? Trust me, I am not saying a word about R or changes or emotions or anything. I am just showing that I am glad to be home, doing things around the house, relaxing and enjoying life.
Wish I knew how to know I am on the right path, or just fooling myself.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
