Your sense of calm you are feeling is a wonderful big step! With this change of attitude and well being all sorts of things are free to change as well.
I noticed on my thread where you had posted to Vinlad about forgiveness. That is such a big thing. I am still trying to define the lines between forgiveness and forgetting and healing. Are they seperate or just shades of one another?
It's been a month since I posted last, but it feels like a year, no exaggeration.
I also feel like I have traveled a long way and have come through a tunnel emmerging on the other side.
The reconcilliation process seems to be so complex and fraught with unknowns.
But through it all I feel like I have grown and learned more about myself than anything else.
I have missed everyone here, but needed to concentrate on things in my life with a lot of thought and energy.
Putting myself into perspective, before tackling my relationship with my spouse. Because to do anything less, would mean I would not have the kind of relationship I really wanted to get to.
I got thrown some big curves and some really hard to deal with issues. Looking back on it, I would have been served well by sharing with everyone here, but I was in too much pain at the time to realize that. Anyways, with God's help, he saw me through what I never thought I could get through, and I am feeling better about me than I ever have in my life.
I hope all my friends are still hanging in there and I want you all to know I love you and missed you...and prayed for you all everyday....
