It's been a little while since I posted, mainly I realised I still had a little bit of getting over exh to do and I needed to step off the rollercoaster of emotions that I was still feeling.
Well, it's odd to say but I feel nothing about him anymore other than gladness that I had the amazing opportunity of the 14 months away and thank goodness he is no longer in my life. I have no desire to contact him (other than thinking about my cat once in a while but unfortunately I am in no position to have her back) or have anything to do with him ever again and the feeling of ever being married and divorced seems like it happened to someone else.
I had a brilliant last few months away. My sister came out and we went together to Tasmania which is just beautiful and we had so much fun together and then after that I went to Brisbane. Brisbane was great, hanging out in the sun, being with friends old and new and Joe and I reignighted our romance.
Things were very different this time and I have to say a combination of a non pressured job, good friends, Joe and sunshine meant that I was the happiest I have ever been so I just decided to relax and enjoy my last few months. And I was *so* happy (still am pretty happy but no longer on my Brisbane high). I knew there was an end date to it and it was pretty hard to tear myself away from somewhere where I was so happy but tear myself away I did and set off home via Laos and Bali.
Laos was lovely. My oldest friend has met a Laos man and moved to Laos so I spent a week with her catching up and relaxing and then went onto Bali which I really enjoyed. I went snorkelling and saw a turtle, looked at all the local art, avoided anything Eat, Pray, Love and just relaxed before flying home.
I've now been home a week and it's been pretty nice. I am slowly catching up with my family who are spread around the country and also friends. Living back home with my parents is slightly waring but I do appreciate how lucky I am. I also got my old job back but only 3 days a week which is actually perfect because I really wanted to go back into working in theatres ushering but it doesn't pay well so it means I can do both.
All this is well and good but I feel torn because part of me just wants to go away again but part of me is very happy to be home so I have given myself the summer and have decided to reassess things in September. Things with Joe continue to go really well and he is showing just as much commitment as me, if not actually more even though we are far away from each other at the moment. My friends and family are all well and hopefully my bank balance might show signs of recovery soon once I start getting a salary again. Other than that, I am trying not to put all the weight I lost back on with my mothers cooking and being back to nice chocolate and have a new fitness regime planned.
