One of best, most insightful and powerful posts I've read since coming to these boards 6 months ago.
I'd wish you luck, but I hear the strength that comes from your words and realize that YOU don't need luck...you have determination which is not by chance...but by absolute will.
Hugs to you Cycler...YOU certainly will survive and there's no question that YOU will flourish. The amazing beauty of your self actualization is absolutely inspiring.
T2