I'm just here to offer my support again. I KNOW the pain you are in. I truly understand. I don't have the answers, I don't know how to make it better, I just want to tell you that you aren't alone.
I hope things go well when you speak to your DB coach, I hope you feel empowered by it.
I know how much you love and adore your H. There is nothing more painful than unreturned love. Losing a spouse through death is easier because death isn't intentional.
I'll pray for you and your marriage. I hope it helps.
Me: 35 Him: 43 Together: 19 1/2 years 1st Bomb (IDLYAM): March 2011 2nd Bomb (OW): April 2011 He abandons home/bills/everything: May 2011 He's bought a new house for OW: September 2011