She doesn't trust me being born out of a few things: one-I was taking a couple doctorate courses after she said I should focus on my business and stop getting in my own way..I didn't hear her and thought, "Well I'll just take a few"...big mistake.
Second, early on in our marriage, I had a procedure to scrape scar tissue from the back of my leg and to correct a slight bow legged appearance in calves by having small implant to correct. Told her about the scar tissue not the implant because i was too "embarrassed to tell her" How stupid was I? I just did not know how to tell her and kept burying it. And it sure came out in the lausndry because she said she knew all along. I felt like crap about it. Stupid self pride..
Finances have been tough and I now know how much I "muted" her by saying "It's fine" or I already did, fill in the blank. Just quick emotioned over the stressors. I am so sorry and take 100% responsibility for our situation. I still see the love in her eyes and it hurts to know she still loves me and we are where we are.
