My problem and why I posted the way I did was not out of anger at you, but to make a point that if you are dreaming like this it's effecting you too much.
I don't know 9, I think you just need to forgive yourself by striving to be a better you and accept the fact that you are BETTER than the Predator(Scum). Let her figure out her reality and quit watching/thinking about "them". Again, easier said than done.
You staying up til 2:30am and thinking about this crap at this point is not healthy. Drop the rope and focus on your happiness in the here and now.
I can't remember who it is that has this in there sig, but "Don't stand Still". You have to continue to do things differently. The more you do, the less you will think of "them". Once she wakes up and knows that you are not there for her and that you are truly happy with yourself(Not living in the past), maybe then and only then will she feel "WTF was I thinking".
