17 is my lucky number. Thanks to Wendel Clark as a Maple Leaf. Non hockey fans will have no idea what that means.
Today is day 17 of darkness. While it does help me with detaching thing, it also tells me just how settled in STBX has become in her life with OM/Boss. I wonder if she could go right up until Divorce day next summer without even talking to me once. She certainly has detached. I suppose a new man makes that easier and in fact, effortless.
Feeling a little down today, but not too bad. Just lonely. Friends are good and GAL helps, but some days I just miss cuddling. Nothing can replicate that. When I think of her sharing that with HIM...well it's best that I don't do that.
Tomorrow the kids and I are driving my Mom's new (to her) car up to her. I have not seen her in quite some time. It feels good to be able to do something nice for her.
