Sorry to find you here C2H... I'd hate to live with a hammer over my head, no one deserves that... for the one year ex came back I woke up thanking the Lord for him being home, telling him how happy it made me were were together.... I regret nothing...not that I was perfect (though I did try to be the "perfect" wife for him) but I am proud that I went down fighting and if my kids ask, I gave it my all, loved and forgave unconditionally... and that brings me peace.
HEAL first, don't look for a new R if you are still hurting... when you feel like you don't need anyone, then you can go back to online dating... make yourself whole first.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
