I hope you know it would be mostly fear that would Prevent you from forgiving fear of being hurt again, fear about loss of pride and wounded ego [b]
Thanks 25. The above statement is a very accurate statement of me and what I am battling. Fear about loss of pride and wounded ego. Those things are very strong in me... always have been.
One way that I am trying t look at is this...
If I decide now to walk away from my M and my W... to not forgive her.
In 5, 10 or whatever years, when the hurt is gone, when the feeling of having been disrespected is gone, when I have 'let it go' and long after OM has become a distant memory to both W and I...
When I run into my W and talk to her about her life, about ss's life, how am I going to feel? Am I going to feel regret at not having shared that life with her? Am I going to feel stupid for having let THIS cause me to miss that shared life together? Am I going to wish that I was the man who she ultimately did share her life with?
Is holding onto THIS... defending my ego... punishing W for disrespecting me... for wounding my pride... is it worth risking that the answers to those questions above might lead me to the ultimate regret?
Probably not.
Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
