She is angry at herself more than she is me but to bait me or lash out at me is easy because if she gets a reaction out of me she will think "aha see I was right he is still the same old d!ckhead" and for my own sake I will not give her the satisfaction.
At this point I'm working very hard to move on with my life and while it was not to long ago that I would have given anything for her to call me now I just want peace.
People keep asking me.......what will you do when she wants back in?
The thought terrifies me.
I have to protect myself so I don't think about it.
I think that entertaining the idea is pointless.
My buddy told me to expect some contact because he knew he hit a nerve.
One thing I did not mention that my buddy told her
"you are not done with him and he is not done with you. I don't know when maybe a yr maybe two but you will end up back together and YOU know it"
Her response?
"yes I think your right"
Smoke and Mirrors that's all this is.
As for me?
I'm moving on with my life, I'll let god dictate where my path will lead me.
