Side Trip from Forward Motion

[BeingMe]

PS. I told H the night before last to just f*ck off and leave me alone because he was harping on how we should do the RRSP thing. I am still in so much pain from falling down the stairs (and he thinks he's helping me by telling me to lie down all the time ... how magnanimous of him). I just feel like everything is crumbling down around me. I did apologize to him later, and told him that I am angry, and will be so for a time. But, I will try not to let it affect me.

I hate swearing, and I seldom do so in an argument. I am just sore. I need to remember the divorcebusting rules about GAL, getting positive thoughts, looking after myself, etc. Doing it for me, not to get him back, because I don't really want him back now. Not like this anyway ... maybe if he has some sort of epiphany, but that is so unlikely to happen that if it did, we would see pigs flying. When I look back, I don't think H has ever had a relationship breakthrough. He kinda says what he knows I want him to say to get back together, and goes back to the normal routine.

But, no more feeling sorry for myself.