Ok, its Sat morning and I feel better this morning. Didnt want to lay around in bed. Normally it takes a little while to get going as I will stay in bed and think too much.
Had a ball game last night for s12, which I coach him still for this team. Good for me as I am on the field with him and dont have to be in stands with w. I had posted that it seemed she was turning things around on me and making me wonder if she is getting on with her life. Since last friday which is the last time she exploded and cried, she has been very quiet. She has been calling and texting kids as I had asked. All which I feel made me feel worse. I guess as long as she was crying and compaining I felt I was making some progress. Again seems the OM is out of the picture. She came to the ballgame last night, and sat in the stands with d14. She does make it obvious at times when she just walks up and looks at me and says nothing , not hi or hello or kiss her butt. I will always try to at the least acknowledge she is there by saying hello. I think at this point I should stop and let her start any type of conversation.

About half way into the game, I noticed my d14 had an upset look on her face, so I left the dugout in between innings and went to ask her. W had walked away to the bathroom, d14 told me that her mom took her cell phone away for not going to get her something from concession stand. I was like, wow really. She said yes, she is acting like a child, and I dont know what her problem is with me. I told d14 to just relax and I would talk to her after the game and I would get her phone back for her. A few minutes later s8 came to me in dugout and asked for money to get something to eat. I heard w yell to me not to give him any money, I walked down the fence to the stands and asked what was going on. She told me that she already gave him 5 dollars and he wasted it. D14 yelled to me that he bought her a snowball with the money. I told w that it has been a while since his last meal, and then walked away. When I got back to the dugout , i looked up to see if she was going to give him the money, and she looked at me with the evil eye and mouthed something to me. I just left it alone and went on with my game.
After game, i was packing my truck, and w was in her car and pulled up by me and asked if she could speak to me. I walked over and she said there were some things that she was upset about. She said that d14 did not do what she told her to do and took her phone, I told her well you are in fact her mother and if that what you felt you needed to do, then I have no need to know that. Then she said she was mad because I told her to give s8 some money. I told her that I only told her the last time he ate and it was up to her to give him money or not, again you are his mother. Then she went off about us going to the mall earlier that day. She said I got off early and wanted to spend time with them. I asked her if she told me or the kids that she was getting of early, then she said no. She then wanted to know why I was out spending money at the mall. I told her we did not spend any money, just went walking around the mall as that was what the kids wanted to do. I think it was more about me GALing then anything.

She then commented about the kids spending the night with her this weekend and I said you never told anyone your plans for this weekend and that I have been trying to force a schedule to her for the kids. Again she has only had them spend the night wit her 3 times in the three weeks she has been gone. D14 told her earlier that they could spend saturday night as s12's game would be over by 2 and they could spend rest of the day and night with her. which was my suggestion as it would give her more time with the kids as what she always complains about. I told her while she was sitting in car that it was up to her and the kids and I didnt want to be part of that. I kept the conversation short and polite and then walked away back to my truck. I noticed when she was leaving that again she was crying. I also noticed again, she did nothing but stare at me during the ballgame. Its almost like she wants me to come to her and ask for her to return home. I know this is killing her as much as me but I continue not to show it. I was very proud of the way I handled myself last night. watched a movie with the kids last night and then went to bed. I did give a little thought about what she was doing last night, if she was out drinking again, but I know that is part of Gods plan not mine if she is. I only ask him to protect her.

d14 made comment on the way home that her mom is acting like a child and blaming her for everything. I told her not to worry and she has no blame. I told her that this was part of moms journey and things she has to work through. Just like I told her the day her mom walked out the door. I told all of them last night that what is going on with mom right now, is part of what is expected to happen when mom made her decision to do what she is doing now and that she would get through it and be better one day soon.
Hope you all have a great day!!