OK... 81 Days

[25yearsmlc]

Denver,


I hope you know it would be mostly fear that would Prevent you from forgiving
fear of being hurt again, fear about loss of pride and wounded ego

none of these are reasons to forgive, Least of all fear


AND in my case,


the last thing I wanted to do was forgive my h (I sounded a lot like someone else who "enjoys" this debate, and avoids questions about his own role or what he said elsewhere...& deflects)


But it was NOT fear that got me to forgive

First, it was just me being tired of being consumed by my pain and feeling so "unfree". Always told people what h had done TO ME...wanted them to agree with me, validate all that I said, etc


I was not getting bEtter, I was getting bItter and did not like how I sounded when I talked to people, as I got a mere taste of what sbh is getting here and that bothered me.

and second, and more importantly,

I wanted to KNOW I'd done my best as a believer. I told my mc that.



If Christ didn't teach us about forgiveness as THE priority,


then I missed a major concept


Denver, I posted a story about forgiveness that might move you, as it did me. IT's around here, under "Forgive or else, what?"

good luck my L friend


You know I'm rooting for you no matter what. I am hoping you forgive, regardless of your other choices, and I know you get that.