You have one of the most intricate issues on this board. You know I can't help here. I can just offer you support as you navigate through these waters yourself.
After all, Marlin didn't want to go to Sydney... he just needed to go there to save Nemo. I'm thinking your journey is going to be as hairy as Marlin and Dory's. But somehow, you seem to have the knack for coming out on top.
It WILL require a lot of maneuvering and skill, but we both know you have plenty of both.
I firmly believe that you can have relationships with all your loved ones. They're all part of you, like you could forget?
Go you! Big bear hugs,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."