Feeling vey overwhelmed today. Legal problems with suit, divorce lawyer uncetainty, job hunt pressure, parental pressures, they don't want this to work out for us and will only support me if I leave our R. Kids are skeptical about this is going to work out. I understand they've had to see some of the worst of it....and that hurts.
I know they just care and don't want anyone to get hurt, they aren't sure of what their dad is doing, wish he would get a job and get settled and that I would be able to find for myself...and we would be happy.
Saturday went well...we had talked and agreed to stay in for evening but down at condo. Went down,spent the night..+ Had good time, had great sunday morning...H suggested I go back out to house and he would come out for dinner and then we'd go to movies...after a few hours he changed his mind and said he didn't want to go...we could go another day this week....he wanted to do laundry and reply to e-mail expected from shark lady...and get ready for class on wed.
I was initailly a bit skeptical,I began to think maybe shark lady was up to something???maybe not....I know I get to over thinking and being suspicious when I don't need to be, but I was dissapointed and asked myself why? Because I was looking forward to going somewhere with Dr.K. I am feeling the need to share some experiences, but ultimately okay with this....he said we had had some quality time and that he would rather shoot for thursday....I can understand his spacing out activities, it gives him something to look forward to for each day rather than lumping things onto the weekend and then having less during the week. I went back to house.... Tired...I skipped church Didn't eat dinner.
Gabe cleaning up and asking about what to do with his stuff...storing? where when for how long....... Looks like( he hasn't directly said) he will be leaving shortly. I woke up at 4 am he was in kitchen cooking as always...I am going to miss him sooooooo much....
