First, and without sounding too weepy, this site has been the greatest source of inspiration, determination and honesty for me. I feel like I've made some good friends who genuinely care for each other. Thank you all for being here, even though we'd probably rather not be here.
25yearsmlc:I didn't see your last post to my original thread until today; thanks for checking in. It's interesting that you mentioned sharing a laugh, maybe a little flirting...one of the strong parts of our M was our ability to make each other laugh so hard we'd cry. It hasn't been until just this week that W actually laughed at something I said to her; she has been so serious about her life lately. And yesterday she commented that I looked good. I don't remember the last time I heard that from her.
I'm careful to not take those little instances and turn them into something they are not, but at least the mood in our home is lifting.
This morning I received a terse text asking if I had given SS21 his morning meds before I left for work. I wasn't able to respond promptly (in a meeting with a client), and so received a 2nd text within a few minutes demanding I respond. Old Telemark would have fired back with a text or phone call stating that I was not the live-in nanny and not at her beck and call. New Telemark called, apologized for the mix-up, assured W that everything was OK and suggested she call next time if it was urgent and I would be sure to respond promptly. Her mood defused immediately, and I felt good about maintaining my cool.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS