Something good did come of the convo last night. Some very honest talk. W told me later that night that her decision to file for D sometime this summer was a bit of rush and feels that is not realistic. She said that would not be fair and would not give her time to think things through properly. Then says that she couldnt put a timeline on it but this summer is to soon. (of course I didnt ask for a time line was happy she took this summer off the table.) I basically stood there and listen to her vent. She also was more open to eventually going to MC just not sure now is the time. That she is doing things in her own time and way. In fact she said that is why I (wife) asked you to change your day off so we could do something together, if I wasnt working on this I would have done them without you and just the kids. But I need time to figure this out. I agreed told her how much I appreciated her letting me stay in the house and called it a night. Things were actually nice and light around the house last night...and yes 25 I took a Xanax and just let things be. Going to do that more often even though I hate taking them I like touching the hot stove even less.
