2step,Your words are eloquent, your pain is raw and yet familiar to me, even years out of my own nightmare I can still recall it with only a short "search" inward...I can't even go there for more than 2 minutes b/c of my intense reaction to it...But as for the future and how any of us can ever know whether or how deeply we can trust...don't forget the most important thing, that does apply to all of us. We ALL fear the same things; believing in & loving, and then being WELL deceived, &then left. So the special woman you meet down the road someday, and yes, she exists,she will fear the same things you fear. She will wonder if your fears will make you flee or if your distrust will sabotage the relationship...But she'll choose to take the risk b/c she'll think, "2Step, is worth it". And then, you will prove her right.
A return visit of 25. Welcome back. Your insight is always welcomed. Is she out there? I hope so. You touched on another fear. Will I sabotage the R? God I hope not. I love to love. I love to feel love. No greater fulfillment in my life. I loved being a family man. Little things gave me such great pleasure. You guys from Alaska come around so late. Haha. I am half dead right now and need to get some sleep. I will post in more detail to you tomorrow.
Originally Posted By: FaithnAK
I got thru your third thread today:) Your words hit me so hard, that I have to GO BACK and really remember what you are feeling right now.I'm not going to "fancy" quote you. I'll hit you in email (Warning )One thing I want to say, is once you are completely healed...you won't EVER judge the next relationship you have as a relationship you had with her. You won't. You have the tools, you have the insight, you have the strength.However, you have GOT to let go and heal. Easier said than done, but you CAN'T fix her or control HER. You have to accept that she is addicted to OM and you have to accept the fact that there IS SOMEONE who wants to be with 2step that won't sacrifice their integrity. Glass half full or glass half empty. It's all about your viewpoint and perspective. If 2step is happy, then others will feed off that. Heal! You are not alone. Then worry about what you do next.You are divorced, she's moved on; F*ck the past. Let go.I know this isn't what you WANT to hear...nor is it the END. Man, the sooner you are confident in this, IF she faces her reality and you face what makes you happy. She might comeback. You don't know. Say whatever you want, but you don't know the future. If it's meant to be, it will be, if it isn't then something better will come along.Don't sell yourself short.
AK. Three threads? Wow you really are going to read it huh? I am honored. I will comment to you also tomorrow. Here in the original 13 it’s way passed my bedtime. More to come.
)One thing I want to say, is once you are completely healed...you won't EVER judge the next relationship you have as a relationship you had with her. You won't. You have the tools, you have the insight, you have the strength.However, you have GOT to let go and heal. Easier said than done, but you CAN'T fix her or control HER. You have to accept that she is addicted to OM and you have to accept the fact that there IS SOMEONE who wants to be with 2step that won't sacrifice their integrity. Glass half full or glass half empty. It's all about your viewpoint and perspective. If 2step is happy, then others will feed off that. Heal! You are not alone. Then worry about what you do next.You are divorced, she's moved on; F*ck the past. Let go.I know this isn't what you WANT to hear...nor is it the END. Man, the sooner you are confident in this, IF she faces her reality and you face what makes you happy. She might comeback. You don't know. Say whatever you want, but you don't know the future. If it's meant to be, it will be, if it isn't then something better will come along.Don't sell yourself short. 